feeling very sick

Gosh, I had forgotten how rubbish it is feeling so sick. I am not in bed , but with out Mo's sickness watch I feel terrible than I do. Sally surprised me by popping back home because I was feeling rubbish. It did cheer me up...
I also popped over to see Janet for a change of 4 walls.  But the day has been spent doing not a lot. Bit bored at the moment , only so much TV you can watch. Bored of craft and reading book, I have always had the attention span of a sparrow, hence why I do a lot of sport. Hope to back in the pool on Friday  and walking on Saturday...

feeling rubbish

I had almost forgotten  how rubbish I feel on chemo. Stayed in today feeling very sick and generally rubbish.  Thought about going out, but did not get there. I does scare me a little   that  this is the last one. I will have a scan at some point, but no one is going to know, not even those close to me!! I just have to stay strong and it hard at times.

meeting the girls

I met the girls from college today , it was great to catch up, after 2 years I still miss working at the college and the friends I made. Then I went into Glebe as it was on my way home and  felt very at home, although I do not regret leaving. I do miss the people very much. I think I will always pop into Glebe as it is so close.
Chemo this evening, it does make me feel bad , but hay ho!!

A day in Bath

A lovely day today as we went to Bath.  Great day out, got lost getting  back to the car park, then got soaked on the way back, then could not find the car and got even wetter, but we did laugh!!!

Chemo this evening, feeling unsettled at the moment, but generally do before each chemo as know I will not be feeling great.....

last chemo .

I  start my last chemo this week, hopefully Wednesday evening.   I am still tired from the swim , so have not done a lot today, a boring day really...

Poole and Bownsea Island swim

Well, where do I start.
First John, Sally Jack, Sophie all travelled down on Friday night in the rain. Phil and Sarah came down on the Saturday. Saturday Chris came for a practice swim, the sea was rough but brilliant fun, Phil and Sarah arrived for lunch then Sally , Sophie, Jack went back in with Phil for another swim !!

 Fish and chips in the evening, perfect day!!

Day of the swim, Chris pick me up at 6 in the morning, we get to Sandbank, register, then over on the ferry to Brownsea Island. Chris know so many people that are really friendly and have done a vast amount of open water swimming.  The 4 milers go First and I must say so are going a very fast pace.

We  then hop on a boat and head towards our start. The start was very interesting.
Both Chris and I slide off the boat and head towards the start which is a rope with bouys on moored between 2 boats ! .   We hold on to the bouys  then 1 min before the start we duck under the rope and start swimming !! It was choppy and I swallowed  a lot of water, I did find it hard, but with Chris swimming along side me I felt good. I will not lie , I did find it hard and I would not have wanted to do it without Chris. We completed the swim in 62 min !  So so pleased. I was lost for words. Cancer can not take this away.
The outing finished with a picnic with everyone who had come to watch.  They had a good boat ride watching the swimmers and they looked around the island. I really appreciate the family being there for me.

Poole for the weekend

We are in Poole, hoping to do the Brownsea Island swim with Chris on Sunday Morning(Fingers crossed) I hope to swim 1/2  way round the island which is 2 miles. If I was well it would be the 4.
But with old shoulder playing up, 2 it is.  I am so grateful to Chris  who is going to be my swimming buddy.  can not wait !!!
Back to this morning, Jack took me to have my platelet bloods taken I Will know on Monday if I can have the last lot of chemo) then Tesco for some bits and bobs. Home to back scone for Patchway Festival flower show, I baked them the wrong size scones, it was too late to bake some more!.

Bertie under the weather

It has not been my best couple of days, Bertie has been to the vets, a little under the weather, 2 injections later and some tablets he is now ok. But I was surprised how it effected me and my mood, it got me a bit down. That  little dog just keeps my spirits up.
But today has been a lovely day.   Coffee at the garden centre, then Julie came for lunch.
This evening I went to the lake with John, he swam and I chatted !!! Then he took me for a sports massage on my back and shoulder, a little sore from the swimming and sailing.

feeling a little fed up

I am looking forward to the swim, but as it gets closer I know chemo also is and the thought of feeling ill again is not great.
 Good dog walk with Judith and a nice cup pf tea with Janet made it a relaxing day.
The training tapers this week and I am ready for it, I have a sports massage booked for Thursday.
Walking this evening with Elaine and Celia which I am looking forward too.

walking

I did not want to walk, feeling a little sorry for myself, fed up at not driving  not having as much energy as I   want or used to have. But I did walk just over 6 miles and it was brilliant . On the Downs and into Aston Court with mum and Celia. Felt good at the end. 
In the afternoon off to Tesco to buy some sugar for jam making. Blackberries in freezer for nearly a year, so going to do something with them.
This evening John is cooking steak, eating all the right foods for the following weekend !!!!

Tired

You may have gathered from the blogs I have been doing a lot lately, but this week I think it has caught up with me. So I am trying to slow down.  So today I just dog  walked with Emma and had my hair cut. I do love going to the Salon and Natalie does wonders with my hair, it is such a treat. Mum is good at taking me places, really missing not driving.
I also went to Cromwell quarry  to watch John swim. I am still not allowed to go into open water  as risk of infection,  so Bertie and I went for a walk there...

Did not want to swim but did !!!

Well, I did not want to do a long swim, sore shoulder and tired. But John took me and I did swim and I did enjoy the later part of the  swim, I am no sprinter and swim better after I have been in the water for a bit.
Today I also feet anti - social so after swimming I was determined to be on my own all day, but I did text Heather to go for a walk, which was great.

PS  the grumpy old man at swimming( His words) says my grammar and spelling is hit and miss. We  laughed and I said I knew it was bad and I used to get John to check it, but stopped as people will get to know who I am with it as it is . Oh and the man at swimming is very nice !!

Fitness training

Well today I have admitted I am doing too much.  So I did not walk with the girls but managed to get in a last minute sports massage, back a little sore at the moment, old problems rearing it head, when I was not doing a lot it was ok, but more swimming etc, I  need help.
Forgot to say did do a bike ride with Richard, with a subway  roll in the middle. I think we cycled about 8 miles. good fun , but that did not help the back, but so what !!

Sophie is 21

A very busy few days.
Friday we went into town and went for a meal, then a walk along the water front. A lovely evening with my grown up children.
Saturday we had a Pamper afternoon with afternoon tea with the girls. The food was planned by Sally, it was great , then Sally  had also booked a beautician and we  had either a massage, pedicure or manicure, she was excellent.
In the evening we has family and friends for  a BBQ with Jack and Sam doing games, which included giant space hopper races . Brilliant fun with fantastic company.
Now it is Sunday and I have been clearing up all morning and might go sailing  later if not to windy.

Poole

Today we drove to Poole for a practice swim with Chris,  it was great, I felt alive, so looking forward to the main swim
. We also met John's brother and his wife Annette, a great lunch out , it was good to see them too as they live in Sweden, plenty of catching up !. 

Sophie college celebration

Yesterday John, mum and I went to watch Sophie collect her certificate  at City Hall. The mayor of Bristol presented them, it was great, drinks and cake. We are so proud of her. the course she has been on allows adults with extra needs go into the work place ,they  support them and help them find a job. They do a brilliant job..Sophie started an apprentice doing office work a month ago and she is enjoying going to work every day.

A Party

Last night I  threw a party for family and close friends, also friends I had not seen in years.
It was great, the friends I had not seen in a long time  have not changed. It was also a bit of a fun raiser  and we are still checking figures as many people have made donations!. it was a great night and I really enjoyed  my self. 

Today we took our visitors to the sailing club, they went out with Mo and Shaun on the cruiser.
John also took some people out, it was great and because Julie was doing pasta bake we ended up eating there too. Great day out.

Also I want to say well done to Helen from the sports centre who ran 100k for Macmillan.
It is such an amazing thing to and the training must have been hard.