feeling rubbish

I did not even walk Bertie, got up to go, but felt  rubbish, so I got Heather and Janet to walk him.
I went to bed in the morning and slept, then in the afternoon I rested on the sofa. No art today as there is feeling sick and feeling sick , so the only way to just feel sick is to stay in one place and stay still which is very hard for me... Will ask to change extra anti sickness tablets next time.
I did miss art, but I   just moving to make a drink makes the sickness worse. Much more worse than last time .
I am in bed now typing this, Bertie has gone elsewhere as I think he is bored of the one place. So fingers crossed I will better tom.

feeling very sick

Today I woke up feeling very very sick, worse than last time. I did walk the Bertie with Emma and Mum came  up to cut the bit of my left side of my hair, the right hand side is bald.... We  went out to the village shop to put a poster up. I am doing a coffee afternoon on Saturday  2 -4 . it Brain Tumour awareness week, the main day if  Friday. It encourages everyone to wear bandana's , which highlight brain tumours.
Going back to my day, when I was out I felt even more sick, so after mum dropped me off I spent  the rest of the day watching TV and sleeping, I think I spent more time sleeping....

over done it

Well since Phil bought his bike yesterday we had to try it out today. So went for a 7 mile ride out to Alveston, Tockington and then back up fern hill (only walked up the very last bit).
It was good to get out on the bike again but I think with walking yesterday and cycling I have probably done too much.
Have been busy baking cakes this afternoon ready for my Afternoon Tea Party next weekend in aid of Brain Tumour Support.
It was good to have a quick catch up with Tim and Janet before they headed back home.
So this evening I am feeling rubbish even before I take the Chemo so not doing very much now.

walking and buying a bike

I woke up feeling rubbish and  did not really want to walk, but John gave me toast in bed and I did  walk, but I felt sick the whole walk, the only way I did  the walk was to hold my stomach, he relieves the feeling of sickness. We walked 6 miles and the time was ok.
In the afternoon I  went with Phil (My brother) to buy a road bike , it was great fun spending his money. He test rode 2 and bought one and it got to take it home, so we are out on the bike tomorrow . Only short ride and really short if I feel really sick.
This evening Mum and Dad bought fish and chips around at 5, I have to eat by 5.30.  so I can take the chemo tablets later sat  in bed with Sophie watching TV.
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A very quiet day

The appointment was cancelled at the hospital this morning as I  was already under another consultant.
So all I did was usual walk the dog , hand in a letter to the doctors to arrange blood to be taken next month and then  Tesco's, where we saw Alex, which was nice to catch up.
Sophie was off sick today so we both pottered and I finished my art work.
Sometimes is it nice just to be at home, especially when you are feeling slightly under the weather from the large chemo tablet that stick in your throat for 1/2 hour after you take them  even when you drink plenty of water to wash it down... wish it was wine I was drinking.

Rubbish week and bad mood today

Penny Bohn cancelled my massage at 8.30 this morning, a little disappointed. We went to the solicitors to sort out stuff that put me an   even worse mood, so when Janet walked in to dog walk the first thing all I said was" I am  in a really bad mood".  Luckily  the walk sorted me out...
In the afternoon instead of going to Penny Bohn Julie and I went to the Farmer Table which was very good, then the charity shops in Thornbury. Julie also cheered me up and we laughed at my bad mood.. This evening is just Sophie and I . I also have  to take my first lot of chemo....

It is  hard  knowing your illness is terminal, I have planned my funeral, No flowers, waste of money, the money is better spent going into research on brain tumours.   planned where the reception is going  be written down where I want things to go...  I also have told John where I want people to sit at Church.
I have even written the list for the finger buffet, easy food and Sophie is good at doing this.

Speaking to another lady in hospital with the same as me  she has done the same!!

swimming, chemo nurse and walking

First swim today, only 20 lengths and I had to tell myself not to do more. It felt great...
Hospital this afternoon and I picked up my chemo tablets, so I start the treatment tom. 5 days on, 23 off . I will have 6 lots of this and the dates work well the events I have planned, so sure how it all worked but Sally was there and she knows what is what...I know I will feel ill for some of it .
Walking this evening in Thornbury with Mum, Celia, Sally and Sophie and yes I said Sophie, she moaned a bit, but we did 3.5 miles in  a good time.
I am now very , very tired.
Penny Bohn tomorrow and a massage .