Being Open

They say it is harder to be open than not so I thought I write my thoughts down this evening.

It was my Birthday yesterday, I found this very hard to celebrate, thinking is this my last , or the other train of though was I have got this far.
I do find it hard living with this illness at times, knowing that some things you do, it may be the last time. I not an half empty person  and I am determined to live my life to the full, but I do try hard to stay positive and upbeat . I want people remember me as a smiling person , not a full of gloom person. I am also determined  not to sink into depression again.

today has been good, although things did not go to plan. Missed the bus as waiting on the right stop, but pulled into another bay, watched it go past !!My fault for chatting to Cathy.
Walked with Mum and Celia later, good walk. chilling now.

out with Celia tomorrow and a hair cut at the Salon, when I say hair cut, shaping the hair around the bald patch..

Back to swimming

It has been  a busy day today, Richard picked me up at 8.30 to go swimming. I managed 30 lengths  I think, I am rubbish at counting and it felt good, the only reason I stopped was I was feeling sick, even though I had sickness bands on.
I went to out to lunch with Sally and Jack which I really enjoyed, Bertie came too !!
Very tired this evening, so pottering !1

a quiet day

just pottering in the garden today and an evening meal at mum and dad as being tired makes me grumpy  and that is not good. also missing what I used to be able to do....

over done it

In my determination to get fit, I seemed to have over done it.
Today Sophie and I walked Bertie and Poppy(Heather walks Bertie a lot for me )they are easy together as they  play a lot.
then in the afternoon we went duvet shopping for thin duvets, then we done a BBQ I the evening.
Shattered now, easy day tomorrow .

just forgot to blog

I forgot to blog last night.
Yesterday was lovely, a walk at Severn Beach with Richard and Sophie, a cup of tea there.
Sophie and I had a much out then a bit of food shopping. Home to potter and Janet popped over for a cup of tea. Feeling so much better this time round after chemo, but I think it is because I am determined. Moon walk in 2 weeks so have to train and have legs back. I hope to do 13 miles, although signed up for 26, mum Celia and Elaine are doing that , but Sally and I hope to do the 13.

Off dog walking now into the village, still feeling a little sick, so this will try it all out.

baby sitting

I went to Glebe today to baby sit Megan's baby Sera.  I walked her around  the village. then I walked home,while I got a lift up the hill. I also had a chat with Janet. The rest of the afternoon was quiet as I am still feeling very sick.

So determined

Amazingly I went for coffee this morning, then watched Sally, Richard and Gavin start there swim in the lake , then Tesco. But I felt bad after that and I spent the afternoon in bed, but I did   go  out !!!!!not feeling that good now..