I did swim and shop

I did swim today, Close to bottling  it!!!, but if John could have pushed out of the car he would have done, but I did get out on my own¬. luckily as I was walking in I saw one of the people I swim in the lane with, she knew about the tumour and was very supportive , then I talked to the receptionist about it. I want to be very open , so talking does help. Sarah was leaving , but we chatted, telling Hilary was hard, but if the elephant is out of the room you can move on.
I saw Cathy in the pool, I allowed her to swim 1 length with me, then I told her to get on with swimming! . normally I swim 70 lengths.  I only done breast stoke and float work .I have never liked float work , but need must !, but it felt good. I felt week , but I swam. I can not wait to do front crawl.  I think I only swam about  12 lengths as I ended up chatting to   a regular who wife is going through cancer. My love of chatting is back and so is my spirit.
This afternoon shoebox and the local church, bagging up sweet to go into the box. I love doing this as it is a time to reflect. Mum and Sophie are there, but they are doing other things.
CT scan tomorrow which I am really dreading as each time I have gone thing have got worse, I will try not to be to much of a pain to John, but as he put so affectionately when he arrived back from Israel that I have always been awkward , so nothing will change now.
Going to the Mall later with Girls and Walking with Emma in the Morning to keep busy.
Went to the mall with Sally and Sophie , bought Sophie some boots. I am very aware that when I am have radio and chemo that once the treatment kicks in I might not be well enough to do this. I am also aware that long term Sally will have to get used to shopping with Sophie , which is different!
We saw one of Sally friends up there and she joined us for a glass of sparkling wine at the bar, which was good fun..