Off to Tenby

Going to Tenby tomorrow as John and Sally sailing. Yes I am looking forward to the break. Sophie , Jack and I are going just enjoy being on the beach and visit some places. maybe watch some of the sailing...

How I feel

The aim of this blog was not only for me to write and get my feeling on paper, but to give everyone on insight to how it feels to have cancer.
Today I feel unsettled, the chemo is finished and I am not sure what is next, I guess it is a waiting game to see  when the cancer returns and that nobody knows. I feel ok, tired at times and I do not look like that I am ill and sometimes I can convince myself that I am not ill, but I know I am.. I am trying very hard to stay upbeat and not letting negative thought appear.  I have Kate the counsellor today and I am sure we can put the world to rights there. She is amazing..  On  a lighter note I do make Mo laugh I will now plan to do things in October !!. I find it hard to forward think..

Tenby on Saturday as John and Sally are sailing for the week. RS200 Nationals (Dingy we have) I did the week once and it was way to competitive for me !!!

Sally' 1/2 iron man in Dublin

The 5 of us caught the ferry on Friday from Holyhead, rough crossing and glad to get there.
The  hotel we stayed in was lovely and close to the start of the race.
Saturday Sally had to register, put her bike in and go for a practice swim, busy day. We also tried to drive the cycle route, this proved to be hard as there was one way systems , closed roads and John had a puncture !!! In the evening Phil, Sarah, Katie and Sam joined us for a meal, very nice !!

Sunday we were out of the hotel by 5.30 am ,  a walk to the swim start and for Sally go get ready!!
at 7 the pro's started there  swim, followed by the other 2000 people taking part, amazing sight watching them all go in a swim, then we managed to watch Sally get out of the water and get on her bike, off she went for a 56 mile bike ride to Dublin , Phil and Sarah were able to catch her going though Dublin. 
We all Met in Dublin Park  to watch her run, she still looked good, 13.5 miles later and in a time of 6 hours 33 seconds she finished. So proud... She also raised over £2000 for Brain Tumour Research .
She had plenty of support and the atmosphere at the park was amazing, we also walked some miles that day. We all finished  the day going to Nando's and having A Teddy's ice cream..

Mon. Sally was tired, a little walk into town , then we headed home on the Ferry..

Sailing and going away

Yesterday I went on Sarah's cruiser with John, Alan and Fergus . Great sail to the other side of the river, had lunch on the boat then back. Windy  and Choppy, I felt alright. Proud of myself till I got home and my head felt like I was still sailing, this carried on till the next day!!!  Still spinning now... I like the thought of big boat sailing, but it really does not like me, best  stick  dingy sailing, closer to the water !!!
So today I did not a lot . . Just lunch with Megan and Sera which was lovely.

Dublin on |Friday, so might not blog at weekend. Sally is doing her half Iron man event which she trained very hard for. Sarah and Phil are also coming , so is Sally's Friends Katie and Sam.  So she will have plenty of people to cheer her on.....

Sailing with John

Saturday I went cycling with Phil and John,. Sally Richard and Jack cycled about the longer route.
Today I went sailing with John, I did not want to go really, but I had a great sail with him, the wind was just right.  Came home and the girls had  done the house work, brilliant , just ironing to do, life goes on as normal.. A visit from John Parents, then a Sunday Roast, good Sunday all round....

Cardiff and Castle Coombe

Well, I am living. I have been out every day and it is great. Still feeling sick at time from the chemo. Had to do only a short walk on Monday due to chemo legs
 and feeling sick, but I can put up with that.
Fantastic lunch with mum and dad at Ronnie in Thornbury on Tuesday lunch time.
Today Mum and I caught the train to Cardiff to visit Sally and we went in the international Pool there, it was great, I wore my wild happy swimming hat with pride(Chris gave it to me) it has a big smiley face on it !!. Not allowed to lake swim yet, but this was close.
In the Evening Sally, John, Richard and Gavin, plus 9 others from the tri club  went to Castle Coombe for a bike time trail, it was so interesting.
My days are full but I am enjoying life, I am trying hard to live and sometime forget that I even have this horrible cancer, at times it is easy , other times it is hard !!  But do you what family life feels normal and that the way it should be. At the moment Sophie is feeding Bertie Crunchy Nut cereal too wind Sally  and I up !!! 

a cheer for living

This week has been good, although I did not feel well enough to swim or walk, but I have had fun.
A few hours in Chepstow, shopping at the mail and going out with Sophie and Sally.
Tomorrow I am going to go for a bike ride and back to walking on Monday. I am also trying to get 2 swims in. I read a book Chris gave me called Swimming with Smiles, brilliant, the story's in there would make anyone want to swim, there was a lot of people who have swam the channel either relay or solo, lets just say I would not want to do it, but I do admire them !!!!    But some stories were just about people loving swimming and that is where I come in, I love the feeling of being in the water and I epically love being outdoor swimming in the sea, freedom and feeling of being at one with nature.  At counselling this week we chatted about how tired I got after sport and getting the balance right, which is hard as my does get very tired, but my love of sport is so great I think it is worth it and the buzz I get when I compete (aim to Finish) and an event is great.  I am also lucky enough to do my sports and events with some great people who always believe in me ...... I also get to chat a lot... but not all the time, can not chat while swimming ..have tried !!!

Forgot to say took a gamble and took the watch off on Friday and I did not feel sick, I told Mo it was mind over matter..it worked !!

will not be bloging so much

My treatments have finished and I am still feeling sick, but getting out.

I do not want this blog to be a boring dairy of my life so hence I will only blog once or twice a week, the consultant said having been on treatment for so long , now is the time to live, then she said I have been living with it! 
So now I am going to  just bring you the highlight each week.