Swimmming, watching Sally and a hard Bike ride

Swimming Thursday and Friday, once with Mum and the other with Cathy. I also had a very good lunch with Anna.   Saturday Sally ran 6 miles with Bertie in a canine cross event, it was very muddy. Bertie who colour is light brown was black at the end .
Sunday Sally  took John , Phil and I on a bike ride to Berkeley and back.  We cycled 29 miles and it was very hard the last 10 miles, boy did I want to stop, but if Phil can keep going so can I !!!!   We did get home and my legs thighs were burning and a slightly sore bum, but   I did enjoy it !!  I am fine now.... We have now decided to aim for 20 or more miles each ride .  

Photo of Sally and Bertie to follow

I do find it hard, but so determined !

I have been asked many times how I cope. I do find it very hard, but I am so determined to say  the  positive. My dad said  the other day, that I have made it easy  for him to cope because I am positive, That is what  drives me !  I may have this awful cancer, but why should everyone suffer too. It is just not fair . I also have Kate (everyone needs a Kate)where I can cry and feel sorry for my self, when I leave there the happy faces  goes back on and the world ok. But I do have bad days and I will let some people know now, but it hard for me to let people know that I am having one .

Back to this week . Went to Helens the dog trainer with Bertie which was excellent. and the usual dog walking with Heather  and Poppy. Art was great, although I was rubbish this week, never use black !!!. I went to counselling with Kate this morning  and this afternoon I spent baking, which I love doing. Swimming Thursday and Friday and looking forward to my swim and chat with Cathy !

cycling and strictly tour.

Getting ready to watch

Brilliant bike ride with Phil On Saturday, followed by a visit to Aunty Pat to see my cousin Lindsay and her new baby Bea and Effie who is 2 1\2 .So nice to hold a baby and n I no longer get broody, well past my sell by date !
Sunday, early start as we caught the train to Birmingham and went to watch the Strictly Live Tour.
It was fabulous Celia , Sophie, mum and I had just the best time, brilliant seats and the atmosphere was amazing !! 
Cheers to living !!!

oops over doing things

I think I may have over done things as I got very tired ! I actually missed swimming today.
I had a great walk on Monday Evening and Art was very good.  I also have Benji this week so plenty of dog walking. Today I took Poppy, Benji and Bertie for a walk in the park, all rolled  in fox's pooh, they stank, try bathing 3 dogs that had pooh all round their faces !!
I take this drink called moa, they have changed the recipe , they say improved, but it has just made me   feel sick !! I have 3 large bottles of it !!  sorry moan over !!
This afternoon I went looking at Dinner and Dance venues with Sarah.  Sarah and Adrian now have to choose one and I do not envy them. I do have my favourite and it not the one I thought it would be !!!!!

I think this is normal.

not sure what my normal routine is at the moment , but I think this is it.
Friday swimming, back to the mile session, food shopping with Mo. Both I enjoy very much.. I think I also went for a dog walk.
Saturday I went for my usual 6 mile walk on the Downs with mum and Celia and  Sunday I went for a 18 mile bike ride with John. John likes hills and I went up and quite a few, I am getting better at them... I will try and remember the route to cycle with Phil. 
The thing about this cancer is that I feel I have to cram in the things that I thought I would have plenty of time to do, hence working harder on the cycling than the walking,  there is some much I want to do with the bike and so little time !!

life does go on !!!

Life does go on, back dog training with Bertie on Monday morning, he can bit a bit funny with big dogs, but thanks to Helen and the group walks he has got so much better.  walking again   on  Monday evening ,  which I really enjoy , art on Tuesday afternoon, I learn something new every day. Today I went swimming with Cathy then out in the afternoon with Sarah looking at Dinner and Dance venues for the sailing Club, it was very interesting,  I did enjoy the afternoon and it did make me feel I was doing something worthwhile.

Now that I am living !!

Now that I am still here , I going to get on with it. Having finished work last year and having no chemotherapy life does feel a bit odd. I have no intention of going back to working life, but I am not one of those people that like to meet for coffee each day. I do need a purpose.  So where do I begin ?
I think I will concentrate on my sport for starters  and maybe some voluntary work, but voluntary without a lot of people, as weird as it sounds I do not want people to get to know me, just encase the tumour come back quickly.  Living with this is hard at times, some days harder than others and some days it is easy.
Enough rambling on .  Busy weekend. Walking with mum and Celia on the Downs was brilliant and I will never get bored of walking there. We have such a laugh, we always  power walk 6 miles, we have  a great hip action !!!!!!
Sunday I was out on the bike with Phil, about 10 miles, it was icy in place, but it felt great. I am getting better at going up hills..  Mike and Lily( John parents) came round for coffee and to finish the day mum cooked roast lamb  for  dinner. Perfect weekend !!

A bit of Banter.

What prompted me to blog this, I have to say swimming, there was so much banter and laughter going on today it was great. (I did swim)To say I love banter is an understatement, during the time I was really ill ( I know I am still ill). I am mean going through chemo, the banter faded  away a but, but it is safe to say it is coming back !!
I am used to people taking the micheal out of me, one day a swimming someone in the fast lane informed Cathy and I that we were in a swimming pool !!! we were chatting at the time...
I know I love chatting and the people that know me I can chat doing anything. Another thing I love is laughter, Mo and I were out today and we laugh at the strangest things , I even laugh at myself !!!!

New Years day dip

John , Phil and I  took a dip in the sea today in Newquay. It  was an event to raise money for CLIC. We dressed up in Hawaiian cloths.  It was very cold and such a great thing to do. The water was very very cold too, but  we all managed to swim, maybe only breast stoke and not very far, but we did swim. I was very grateful to have Sophie and Sarah on the beach with warm cloths at the end.   We are still warming up now, but I would love to do it again !!