I cooked the evening meal, Tockington tri

Sophie, Celia and I went to Watch the Tockington Tri today, where Sally, John, Gavin and Richard took Part. Lovely event to watch and they all enjoyed it.

I also cooked the evening meal for mum, dad, Sally, Jack. I needed help, but I still managed to cook a  casserole ,treacle pudding and apple crumble.

I still feeling not right with a urine infection and other things, but they do have to be gone soon !!!

Brilliant doctors

My doctors are fantastic, I phoned up for results today for  infection, then ended up going  there about  pills  !!! Bad ones!!!  not fun, common because  of all the other  problem.. The receptionist could tell all was not right and got me in. They are brilliant, the nurses, doctors, receptionist . I really appreciate having them there. I see  people  rude in there and it does make me mad as they do so much  good and are totally under appreciated...…

They are have also been good to the girls , John does not really go !

Weymouth

we have been to Weymouth  for an 1/2 Ironman Event, which is 1.2 mile swim. 56 mile bike. , half marathon. Sally was doing it all, but after 3 puncture heavy. rain, very windy she gave the bike up at 52 miles and some kind people gave her a lift to transition. She was safe !!!!!! and I am so proud of her termination to do these events.
John, Jack and I  were mean rely, but due to back still being sore, swimming is proving hard. I am walking, determined, but things are not easy. So John did the swim and the bike and Jack ran the half Marathon, So proud of them both.
Sophie and I did have a very good weekend. The house we stayed in was close to the event, so we did not get wet and watched only what we wanted. John finishing the bike and Jack on the run. The swim started at 7. . I was  in bed....
I must say it was brilliant family time and that is so important to me at the moment ,,,

water infection to finish off

 Well if you  really want to finish to whole being ill off , just get a water infection. I t makes you feel terrible, more tablets, but getting there now. Just want to feel good for a little bit. 

Off to Weymouth to Watch A half Iron Man, should be doing the swim. John is doing my part with the bike, Jack the run.  Another thing I can not do...…  But I am still positive about the cancer.
Sally is doing the whole thing as a warm down !!!!
Packing this afternoon, as intend to shop and shop ,walk along the and have a lovely lunch with Sophie and of course try to watch them ( needle in a haystack )

Straford and Sailing Club

We went to visit Phil and Sarah in Stratford  upon Avon on  Saturday , Phil  and Sarah both work there during the week, it was  brilliant visit and good to see where Shakespeare livid and you are right I am not really into shakes spear but I did love history at school  and it was my favourite subject, I liked my teacher Miss Stace.
Sunday, we went to the sailing club to visit everyone, I have not been down scene I have been ill, so it  time to be social.   I did enjoy it and I do love the feeling of being down there.

Moods are a lot better but really struggling with the exercise being taken away. but saying that walked 2 very slow miles with Celia and a 12 length swim with John. Very hard and it left me very tired..  Walking tom with Celia as Sophie  and John are training with the tri club and YES, Sophie loves running and has joined the tri club and I am very PROUD.. 

Real Anger

 To be  honest I have never really felt anger like I did yesterday about the  cancer, but yesterday I  I felt anger , just a build up at everything , which resulted in me leaving art after an 1 hour,(not angry at Art, just life ) having a upset stomach , feeling tearful and going to bed. John could nothing right in my head and the word was a crap place.  I hate this cancer , the way it makes me feel. the effects it has the family, my limited ability lack of wanting to eat as I have a sore throat from radio, the thought of chemo and everything that goes with . I have said it all.  I just  hope the chemo works , although they have said it works  a lot less second time round.
I have never said why me, and that still stands, I would rather it was me than the girls or someone younger. Cancer is cruel and this one hurt , plus I the concertation of a sparrow.

So I said it all and yes I feel better today, hence being able to blog, but lazy I am . I am still not dressed, but I will be  soon. I also intend to back a cake. 
Elaine popped in and I had a good chat with her and was open and so  did Julie , it was good to say things as they are.  I also was dresses by 11, still very lazy...

weston Super Mare

Sophie, John, Bertie, Benji  and I went to Weston Super Mare, it was brilliant, I walked  and it felt so so good, I am now walking more and more. I am so determined to push myself  and walking on the beach is a holiday to me.   I just love Weston.
We also walked and down to the pier end and had fish and chips , what more could a girl want..

It is painful

The is no getting away from the fact that this  horrible cancer hurts, epically in the morning. I wanted to swim today , but the pain, having taken very strong pain killers was just too  much.
On a positive side today , I had my hair cut this this morning, looking the mirror was not good, my face is puffed up , due the steroids, but you can not have it all,  \I do love having my hair cut.
I got muddled today and missed meeting Ro up, which  is unlike me, but I  had a time in my head and got it wrong !!
I am determined tomorrow is going to be a a better day than today , live life and hope that I can prove to  the hospital  that there is a lot me left in me than they think...

tring hard

Ok. \I do admit I can be bad tempered at not being able to do what I want.  I am trying hard not to t be and I am pushing the walking every day and hopefully If the back is not to sore I will swim this week. As  for life it feels like going  back  many stages and yes I do feel scared about the future and what the future hold, but  I  will cope . I will  not hide, but my own company is still good as I do need thinking time.  I have Kate this week, which will help and there are other things I want to do to help myself, but only I can sort thing out. the family are great.

great day today, saw Denise with her dog, it was great, Benji  played so well with him. Sarah also cooked a fantastic Sunday Roast, so a good good day all round.